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Monday, August 24, 2009
the first day of the rest of....or something.
7:28 AM
first day of school and no buses for us this year. a first. i watched my children drive away. in a car. both now in high school. a statement about their independence. their responsibility. their growth. mine and their father's parenting. my age! a few days ago i thought i had dirt or food or just some thing on my face. around my mouth. and when i got closer to the mirror for inspection. wrinkles. small vertical lines cropping up around my top lip. a little frightening. sent me to my computer googling. sephora-ing. looking for a product to help in the fight. $60 for little tube of lippy stuff. sure, sounds reasonable. ah, im not old. i know. im younger than most mothers with two kids in their final years of grade school. when their off and out, ill still be young and spunky, ready to travel and be "in my prime". i think. if my trainer doesnt kill me. yes, ive started training again. it had been some time. i am practically a 65 year old fried food snackin smoker on a tv bender, what with my stamina and muscle tone. she just laughs, that sadist trainer when i am about to puke. but so it goes...ill get in shape and be ready to start flexing to strangers in public again. i've been away from this blog world for quite a while and i will not apologize. i just had stuff to do. and i still have stuff to do so i make no proclamations about consistency or quality. all i know for now is im in therapy. i have started my new business and i am working. ive got big kids. grown women really, living in my house who sometimes give me the time of day and i like being here for it when it happens. im on a self help binge and am trying to purge. old shit. no expectations. just doin it. ciao for now. good to be back. 0 Comments Friday, January 23, 2009
RSVP stands for répondez, s'il vous plaît which is french for please reply!
11:27 AM
i keep starting blogs and quitting so i have a big ole pile of drafts that may never see the light of day. i'm feeling a bit overwhelmed and speechless. strange things keep happening, i've been trying to arrange my house according to feng shui rules and i've smudged the hell out of every room and still...something doesnt feel quite right. it was suggested i should have a roll in the hay in each room. i'm workin on that one. i had a little feel sorry for myself cry this morning and literally, audibly talked myself up out of the hole i was digging. "it's ok, everything's ok, it could be worse, i see worse around me, i'm ok, we're ok" our housewarming party is this weekend. hope you can make it and also hope we will have located said snake pre-party! if you are afraid, i will lie to you and say we found it. none will be the wiser. i am headed to vegas for a photography convention in february. 14th through 19th. im excited. mostly i'm just aching to travel again. my legs are restless. i want to explore. europe is my true desire and i am going to make that happen. some things are in the works. i'll keep you updated!     4 Comments Thursday, January 15, 2009
if the pants fit...
1:50 PM
i got home last night and chelsea was lounging on the couch in pants that i owned over 10 years ago. i startled....thinking 'i thought i got rid of those'. i asked her where she got them and she picked em up at a thrift store a couple days ago. they could've been mine. 0 Comments Monday, January 05, 2009
not so humble abode...
10:17 AM
there has been much packing and loading and moving and hauling and unloading and rearranging and cleaning and and and..... julie hung curtain rods for me and i now have in my bedroom dark brown curtains...the first time in a decade at least that when the sun comes up i'm not blinded! its dark and warm and my house is quiet as opposed to the high traffic area i lived before. i sleep like a rock. since being in this space, we've built hmmm, i think 5 fires in my fire bowl. the back deck is so inviting and it gives me great satisfaction to walk around and pick up the plethora of tree limbs and sticks scattered about in my yard, to burn. i am working and cleaning and enjoying the benefits of it all at the same time! there are still many a boxes left to be unpacked. but i have a problem. this house is an older house and the hall closets smell like ass! no joke! dead animal? i dont know! ive washed them down thoroughly with antifungal, anti bacterial, heavily lemony scented stuffs and still....rank! i do NOT want to put my towels and sheets and "sentimentals" in there to get all nasty. so, the miscellaneous stuffs are still piled high in boxes, waiting to have a resting spot all their own. it was suggested i should paint to seal in any odors. have you ever painted a closet? have you ever painted a walk in closet with floor to ceiling shelves on all 4 walls? dear god in heaven, please...there has to be some other way!!! so, other than that..this house is delightful in every way! - i havent had hard wood floors in years and it gives me great pleasure to skate around in my socks. mexican tile, although lovely was never conducive to this. - i think its important enough to say this more than once...i love the silence of my house. no traffic noises (although i had learned to think of this as waves crashing on the beach shore). no more bass music blasting outta lo rida cars. no people screaming and horns honking. silence. well except for the dog next door. (there's always animal control, wink wink) - on sunday nites while sitting outside, i can hear church bells chiming in the distance. - there are so many large windows, during the day i hardly have to turn on a lite at all! - the gas heater kicks booty! i click it on and immediately i am sweating! woo! perfect for a weather wimp like myself! - there are two driveways...no "can you move your car please" allll the time. - brand new windows that open from the top and bottom. easy to slide...no elbow breaking pushing and grunting to get a crack of air. - the kids are content and pleased and overwhelmed with decoration inspiration. - sparkling shiny kitchen! filtered water in fridge door, flat top stove, timer and preheat setting on oven (not that i know how to cook, but i hear these things are good). - there is space, space to spread out. space to be alone even when other people are home. space to breathe and relax. space to have private conversations without the kids hearing. space. space. oh i love the space. i could go on but it feels like bragging and i think bragging's not healthy or good so i'll just say this one more thing... i adore my new house! 3 Comments Thursday, December 18, 2008
upgrade
1:59 PM
on a walk through myer's park, a darling little gem was discovered! the girls and i have decided to leave our beloved 1000 sqft diamond street home and spread out in 2100 sqft beginning jan 1. happy new year! a huge selling point for me was the office space!! i have a separate entrance to meet clients in.  the living area is very bright and open. the kitchen is brand spanking new. there are 2 fire places. hardwood and tile throughout. i dont even have enough furniture to fill this place up!  and of course, it wouldnt be the myers park/indianhead district without the hideously colored bathrooms! pink for the girls, blue for me! be on the look out for your housewarming invite!! 4 Comments |
